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[08 Jul 2007|10:21am] |
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i have strep throat!! :( :( gay... mistakes .. hmmm.. silly silly.. no regrets really.. should i regret doing what i do? maybe the effect but if in my mind i desired what more wrong to follow through? woo hoo lauren and ashley are home!!!! im so happy!!! all my lovely ladies are here! party time!! haha
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[04 Jul 2007|09:58am] |
this dark inside unfamiliar since the past.. growing in spite, hatred, callousing the heart. no feeling no touch just ice and tears. drawing near is an option but not a desire.. the sickness is alive, it tears and rips into the built up being. hypocrisy, a laugh for irony, deceitful and manipulative, secretive to yourself. sitting in the corner nursing self inflicted wounds, growling at those who seek to mend. inviting pain, numb to its sting, so also numb to love of any kind. unreceived joy due to walls and thorns. getting bigger and growing out of control... the body routinely stabs its own back. celebrating freedom.. freedom to destroy oneself? freedom to hate our brother... not to the face, in the quiet.. while you disrespect the other and excuse its lust. hate can choke the life inside when hate is toward the one who chokes. whispering help when screaming solitude hinders the rescuer from discovering the distressed. carve out the smile and screw the twinkle in your eye... go do good outside but slam your morals in the door on your way out..is this an existance.. perhaps just a life that screams needed grace
Luke 7:47
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| comfortable surrender |
[31 Mar 2007|11:16pm] |
haha whoever said surrender was comfortable yet my hands are so much smaller than His.
minds change from day to day and yet you still think this one is different
Hah .. sure.. just cause of comfort and time
Mutual is not the character of this one.. or is it
Dare you to say something.. mess up your relationship
I know this is your weakest point.. your going to give in
Think about him.. talk about him.. ill even let you dream about him
I win no matter what.. youve given everything over but your emotions
Yea let the passion linger within you.. dwell on it , act on it
watch the act "love" and revel in your lonliness
love the freind zone cause pretty soon ill take that from you too
dont worry.. right now you think the price is reasonable
get jealous and mad at your girlfriends.. they are jerks
think about the ones who pine for you yet hate Him
haha i love this game.. you play so easy into my hands
as soon as i start you stop
no more conversations with Him.. you think its His fault
well good.. continue with that
cause if you do talk to Him
He'll guard you.. ugh that peace and protection crap
well too bad you wont think to turn to the only one who can defeat me
aahh buckle up sweety cause im taking you on a dead end drive!! yee haw!!
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